Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Significance

Spring has come to England! I have been enjoying sunshine far more than I thought would be possible in this rainy part of the world! The temperature hasn't passed 70, but I am still so grateful for not having to be in my jacket constantly! Life here is feeling a lot more like normal life than I expected it would. I am kept busy with routine weeks of helping at the churches and Sublime. I have started to miss having friends close by. Plus, I have been craving REAL Mexican food for about 2 months now...

Despite the very mild homesickness, I am still loving my role here in London. I am beginning to realize that what I am doing is actually more significant to those around me than I previously thought. I am caught between the two extremes of trying not to get a big head about what I do, and acknowledging that God has made me to be an important person in His plan. I want to remain humble, but I need to learn that God has created me to be significant, and that He can use ME to make a difference in the people around me. My leaders here have been so encouraging, and they regularly compliment my work and the qualities I possess. Yet, I always feel uncomfortable when they do this, or when anyone does this.

This week I began reading The Supernatural Ways of Royalty, by Kris Vallotton and Bill Johnson. It is on our "homework" list from Sublime. Within the first 30 pages I was on the verge of tears as I read about how feeling insignificant is damaging to the ministry God calls us to do as Christians. I am beginning to see how true this is in my own life, and how I have acted poorly because of it. Not only here in London, but in all parts of my life. I still don't have it all figured out, and I still have another 200 pages to go in this book! But even just realizing that this in an area I need to be working on is really eye opening! Though it is going to be a difficult road, I am excited for this challenge of realizing more of what my identity in Christ is. I want to completely give myself to God for His purpose. And that means dealing with stuff that I otherwise wouldn't acknowledge as a problem!

I have many events coming up with my home church and Sublime! I will hopefully be posting more updates with the specifics of the events as they happen! Please be praying for all the summer events we are in the midst of planning, and for God to continue to strengthen and equip our team!